There is something to be said about self-love… the importance behind it. The Why behind its importance. There are many times that it so easy to forget about yourself in this life. In a career, in a relationship, when you are a parent, when the outside world teaches us that we are never good enough. Media takes over and promotes that we need to fit a certain mold. Or we need to follow a set of rules for our life to matter. I am here to change this thought process. I am here to call attention to this. Stop paying attention to the copious amounts of negativity surrounding you and start looking deep within yourself to find the love of your life…. Search within yourself to love the most important person you will ever be with, start giving that person that energy they deserve. That person is, and always will be, YOU.
Now, bear with me because I am going to gas myself up a little bit here, and no it isn’t because I am cocky, it is because I am a god damn cheetah and I deserve to love myself.
Let me preface this post about myself to tell you that it has taken a long time for me to understand the relevance as to why I need to love myself. Ive learned that you cannot pour from an empty up, as cliché as that sounds. I am not the prettiest, smartest, funniest, skinniest, most succession woman in the world. You know what, that is OK! I am so much more than being the best at any of those things. What I can say about myself is I am strong, determined, beautiful, caring, successful and most importantly 100% true to myself. I am never afraid to face a fear or challenge head on.
Almost a year ago I was faced with a challenge. A professional one. At a time in my life where I was loving my career. I found out, in the middle of a global pandemic, that my team was being let go. Now before this could happen, we needed to spend the next month ensuring that all outstanding work was completed and that we could hand over our relationships to someone else. Did this hurt me? Sure a little. But it didn’t stop me. I worked that last month doing exactly that. I pushed to continue to grow myself as a person. I joined the unemployment world for the first time ever in my life. I jumped feet first into finding something new. You know what the positive to that is? Because of my continued passion and building those relationships, it only took me 6 weeks, 25 job applications, 8 interviews and 3 job offers to determine my next step.
I have now been in my new role for just short of 9 months now, and I will tell you, I am killing it. It has given me confidence in myself that I truly can do anything I put my mind to. It has given me more successful relationships, career advancements and the courage to step outside of my comfort zone. It was an interesting dynamic to do everything via a computer screen when finding my role but like other things, I did what I had to do.
Today, for the first time in 16 months, I drove myself to one of our offices in Stamford to meet my leader face to face. I was able to meet some of the agency partners that I’ve only met on the phone. I smiled and laughed. And you know what else? I broadened my horizon, again. I introduced myself and showed a little bit of me. I have earned a few different achievement badges within my time here, and today I am presented with a certificate that will be shared with thousands of other people that have yet to meet me. These people will see my name and my accomplishments. These same people that were able to see my name and a picture of my family when I was showcased in a pride post last month. I may still have doubts about who I am as a person. Sure, there are some days I look in the mirror a little disappointed in myself or grabbing a chunk of my skin that has carried three children. I have to tell you though, I see below that surface. I see that fire, desire, passion, accountability, and strength in that woman, and I WILL NOT GIVE UP on her.
I am worth more than what anyone has to say about me that doesn’t know me. I am worth everything that this life has to offer. I have to tell you all, I am so proud of who I am now and who I have yet to become.